I grew increasingly aware that I was feeling ‘off’… something wasn’t right and I stopped.
I started praying and the phrase “all consuming” came to mind. Uh-oh. I repented as I began to quickly realize what was happening...
God wasn’t a priority in my life. And this wasn’t the first time it was happening either.
I suddenly became aware of a pattern in my life when this very thing would occur. It was either a job, relationship, church ministry (yes, this happens more often than us ‘church people’ like to admit or even realize), or... the list goes on.
The problem was simple: things or people would creep in and take my time, focus and attention. In an unhealthy, unbalanced way.
The problem was me. I allowed it to happen.
Our priorities are reflected in our choices. As adults, we aren’t forced to do anything. Whatever we really need to do (aka priorities) is achievable in the hours of the day we have been given. It’s a matter of how we steward our time.
I also connected one other factor that correlated during these times in my life: anxiety.
My anxiety was a red flag that my life was out of alignment, and I didn’t realize it.
People/work/ministry/doing x, y, z should never be all consuming. If we are not careful then “it” can even become an idol in our lives. These things crowd out our personal time with God. God desires our time with Him above all else.
I encourage you to take inventory of what your life consists of right now.
What does your daily schedule consist of? Write down everything you do throughout the day and how long it takes. Observe a month’s time and see what you discover.
And if you want to be really honest with yourself, what do you identify too closely with in your life. For example, does a relationship, a job title, your friends, the ministry you serve, church you attend, etc define you? If one of these were suddenly taken away how would you feel? This is the beginning of that path to discovery…
Today’s scripture Exodus 20:3 / Deuteronomy 5:7
This is the beginning of a new day.
God has given me this day to use as I will.
I can waste it or use it for good.
What I do today is important, because
I am exchanging a day of my life for it.
When tomorrow comes,
this day will be gone forever,
leaving in its place something
that I have traded for it.
I want it to be gain, not loss;
good not evil; success not failure;
in order that I shall not regret
the price I paid for it.